flattering dream

Nakakinis naman yung panaginip ko kagab.  let’s say na nakakakilig na din sa majority. Kasi naman dahil sa dream ko last night about JUAN CARLO, and who is this person? Well he was love team or the person that I hate the most during my high school days. yung scene sa dream ko was that we were in a computer laboratory and his making asar with me and I was super inis to him. He was behind me and without knowing his making akbay na daw saken. Kasi I was busy chatting with my BFF. I didin’t notice his presence and his gestures. So nong napansin ko na yung kalokohan niya I just ingnored na lang na kunwari di ko alam kasi inside me is super kinikilig daw ako. Kainis kasi alam ko na dream lang yon pero parang super real lalo na yung kilig ko. Back to my dream, yun nga deadma lang ako then my BFF making fun of me. Kasi I don’t admit dawn a kahit hate na hate ko si juan carlo is super kinikilig din daw ako deep inside. So mega deny ang lola mo and then she faced me to the mirrorand she  says na “tingnan mo nga yung mga mata mo, iba yung glow halatang in love at kinikilig ka”. So kunwari nainis daw ako nag walk out then nagpunta na lamang daw ako sa practice namen sa dance class. So super ensayo ko then biglang sumulpot sa harapan ko si juan carlo then he grabbed my hands. Na shock daw ako and pinandilatan ko siya ng mga mata. Pero deadma lamang ang lolo mo. Kainis kasi alam mo yun na alam mo na dream lamang pero parang its real talaga yung feelings mo that moment na parang ayaw mo ng magising kasi ayaw mong mawala yung kilig. Ok back ulet sa dream ko. Then yun dinala daw niya ko sa isang corner then sinandig niya ko sa pader so di kami napansin ng mga kaklase namen. Tapos tinititigan daw niya ko sa mga mata ko as in ang tagal daw. Yung mala Korean drama na super intense ng scene. Ganon nag anon daw yon. Guto ko talagang itigil yung dream ko that time, na wala ng gisingan nag anon na lamang forever. Yung feelings mo during the old days with him. The kulet moments and asar moment ko sa kanya then sama mo pa yung buong klase at ang mga barkada mo na super supportive sa love team namen.the best and worst day of my high school life. and yet the most kilig moments days of mine.

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confused

I'm totally confused and prostrated right now. It's been a month since the last time that I write on this blog. And I don't know the reason why I should come up and write again on the blog. Maybe because of the dream that I had yesterday. Its August and irritates me a lot, its such a long time since I remembered him and so post to be I already forgot that its his birthday but for some reasons I remembered it. And take note he was in my dream together with his together which I carried along. I know already that he has his own family and I'm happy for him but I don't know why should I act like this way. The moments that we had came and came in to my mind after the dream. Or may be I should called it a nightmare. We have our own different life right now and careers. 

I hope I could find my own peace in side my heart for a better future right now. I have a lot of things to do in my life and I don't know where I should started right now, so I hope that it won't batter me any more. I'm sick of these things, past is past and I have nothing to do with it. Please God help me!

naisip lang

ka stress naman tong BFF ko ng dahil sa kanya is napapaisip din tuloy ako. Bakit nga ba naman hanggang ngayon eh single pa din kame. ako deadma lang naman pero minsan naiisip ko din yon. ganon ba ko ka choosy at hanggang ngayon ay single pa din ako. pero 3 naman kame ng BFF ko na officialy is single pa din. altough nagkaron na din naman ako ng 2 relationships. pero i can say na yung 1st is yon talaga yung serious for me kasi his my 1st bf and his the man na talaga. tanga lang ako kc pinakawalan ko pa siya..hahahaha! yung second naman is di seryoso pustahan lang yon kaya nga bitter sya saken eh,hehehehe!

ayoko ng isipin na single ako ang mahalaga i have my BFF, family on my side always. don pa lang ok na ko.. and i believed na may taong nakalaan para saken..

because i miss you

MY STAR

my bear

I want this cute little bear with red guitar. Before I received a pink bear with sneakers on the hand. My office mate gave it to me as my request for my Christmas gift. It was my mind of relief in my everyday habit. It can give more strength for my everyday life. 

Yesterday I received a call from my friend named Billy. He's my best friend, I'm little bit sad because his getting married on Saturday (Jan. 28, 2012). It made me sad because his stepping 

to the next level of his life as a husband. For sure his wife will not be at ease with us every time we have our Gimik's. I love him like my brother, he is so sweet to me/us. When we were still in college we hang out a lot at school, church and party's. His a very supportive friend to us. Through ups and down he is always with us and give us his warm hug every time we have our tears in our eyes. I'll just wish him well for his new life as a husband to his wife. More Blessings and babies to come. May God guide them all throughout. I love you my Honey Billy, my guy, my best friend and my Brother. =)